For the majority of the summer and going into the fall, I was feeling extremely similar. As many have observed, it happens periodically from time to time, but I'm usually able to shake myself out of the funk and can come back from the fog after a short period of time. But somehow, the disillusionment and disinterest in my biggest hobby wound up lasting for much longer than I'm used to - practically through the entire summer and headed into the fall as well. Looking back it could be attributed to any number of things;
I.) Being burnt-out or overtired from work. Don't get me wrong, I still very much enjoy my line of work and find my job generally fulfilling. But as of late, we've been short staffed (which requires those of us still here to pull double, sometimes triple the work) and the caseload of patients for most of this year has been particularly difficult, moreso than what's generally expected of this workplace.
II.) The lack of any seriously interesting viewings options on most of the major streaming services (mainly Netflix, but I haven't found Amazon Prime or Hulu to have an especially interesting selection this year either).
III.) The crop of new releases from 2019 haven't exactly been the most interesting or memorable. And I'm normally the last person to write off an entire year so early on, but apart from a select few (off the top of my head, Us, The Farewell, & Once Upon a Time in Hollywood are the only really noteworthy films released before September), almost everything I've seen from January til August of this year has largely been forgettable, if not momentarily entertaining while watching. And that's without comparing the state of things to the outstanding spring / summer crop from 2018.
One rare upside during this whole funk was that around the middle of summer (late July/early August), I connected with a coworker of mine that's also very much into film, and with nearly the same tastes as me. I've had friends before that were into film as a hobby, but never to this degree (heavily knowledgeable with classics & also a strong interest in non-English language fare). Needless to say that we got into a routine of going out for dinner & a movie meetups on at least a weekly basis for just about a two month period and have obviously become very good friends in the process.
Can't really get into this next part with much detail (HIPAA is a helluva law), but to sum up; I received an injury at the workplace during the first week of October, which involved having my jaw broken by one of the patients at the facility I work in. Following this, I had my jaw wired shut for two weeks and was out of work this whole time, with hardly the strength or energy to get out of bed, let alone pick and choose anything I wanted to watch. Since returning to work and regaining my health, my disillusionment towards film has returned with triple the resolve (largely attributable to the lingering trauma from the incident and the increasingly uncertain mood at the workplace since then). I still see newer releases at my previous rate and the films overall have gotten a bit better, but I don't feel as emotionally connected towards anything I've watched in the past month, even while noting the general increase in quality.
And lastly, on a more personal note, my relationship with the coworker who I previously mentioned has been strained a bit since my return. Again I won't get into many specifics here, but we've sort of fallen out of the routine lately and, despite my best efforts, haven't really gotten back into it just yet. There's plenty of possibilities for potential future screenings with the both of us, but this sudden stalemate of both a regular viewing habit and a close friendship has also no doubt contributed to putting a damper on my interest in film, let alone my spirits as a whole.
To end things on a positive note, I've recently sought professional help to help me cope and process my recovery, and I'm hopeful that my friendship with the coworker will be mended in time. At least I hope so.