Thanks
it’s tough at times, but I spent so much of my life passively eating and not really thinking or caring about my body and I have to go a little hardcore on it or I’ll just fall back into the same habits. I have to gamify it to keep myself interested and motivated every day. I also read a lot about health and nutrition and fitness and stuff, particularly on Reddit, but it’s helped me to understand my body better and to realise that my body isn’t special and it’s just the result of my habits. If I want to look and feel a certain way, I have to eat, think and act that lifestyle. I know that if I stop tracking my calories now, I would binge eat into oblivion but I’m hoping that one day I’ll be able to eat intuitively. I’m determined to never be overweight again though, it’s just not worth it.
Being vegetarian has also been kind of eye opening. I was only going to do it for a week because I thought all the typical things; I’d get hungry, I’d feel tired, the food would be boring. What I discovered was that meat is basically a pointless part of a diet. It’s yummy, but unnecessary. And it’s insane how much it’s advertised and shoved in your face. Same with takeaway, if I go on YouTube without Adblock all I see are KFC and Hungry Jacks ads. At supermarkets when they play ads for their specials, it’s always about meat as well. I’m surprised they don’t treat meat like cigarettes, especially with the packaging and how it’s just covered with pictures of diseased mouths and organs, but with meat it’s pictures of happy cows and chickens and pretty colours.
And with takeaway, I remember losing it laughing last year when they did Maccas Monopoly and the ads were like ‘go large, win big’; they ain’t even hiding it. Constant encouragement to eat more, eat badly. And it’s all deliciously addictive, same with sugar. Nobody understands calories and what food really does to your body.
The fat acceptance and HAES movements are also very sad and dangerous, and are gaining more traction as a higher percentage of the population become overweight and want to live in denial about how they got there and what they can do about it. There also so many repercussions for other people when someone is overweight too; hospitals and morgues have to get bigger tables for bigger bodies, nurses and doctors getting permanent injuries from bigger bodies falling on them or not being strong enough to resuscitate bigger people, etc. I also struggle to find clothes that are in my size because the majority of clothing is plus size, though 10 years ago I couldn’t find clothes big enough to fit me. It’s stupid I’m having the reverse problem now I’m healthy.
Ok enough ranting now lol, so many things frustrate me
Whatever you do, don't you dare go back up to 70+ kg! 
STILL the Gaffer!
